Strife

Gen 13:8 And Abram said unto Lot, Let there be no strife, I pray thee, between me and thee, and between my herdmen and thy herdmen; for we be brethren.

Pr 15:18 A wrathful man stirreth up strife: but he that is slow to anger appeaseth strife.

Pr 17:1 Better is a dry morsel, and quietness therewith, than an house full of sacrifices with strife.

Pr 20:3 It is an honour for a man to cease from strife: but every fool will be meddling.

Pr 29:22 An angry man stirreth up strife, and a furious man aboundeth in transgression.

Here is what websters 1828 dictionary says is some of the definitions of strife.
1. Exertion or contention for superiority; contest of emulation, either by intellectual or physical efforts. Strife may be carried on between students or between mechanics.
Thus Gods contended, noble strife, who most should ease the wants of life.
2. Contention in anger or enmity; contest; struggle for victory; quarrel or war.
I and my people were at great strife with the children of Ammon. Judges 12.

Why is it that some people thrive on strife and it makes others ill? I at one time in my life thrived on it. Now I am one of the ones it makes ill.

Why can't people just love each other the way we are commanded to and treat each other with respect? Why can't we keep ugly thought to ourselves? Why do they have to be shared with others? Why are we willing to quickly believe the worse of people we are called to love? I have alot of questions this morning and not many answers. But I do know that my Father in heaven has the answers. And I ask that you pray for me to find them today. I can't go on like this. I have to find my peace again. It has been gone since the beginning of July and I want it back. I will not stop seeking till I find it. Where my joy had returned, it has just as quickly vanished by unkind words. This should be a time of great joy for me. Yet it is not. I really need your prayers. Thanks.