Friday, April 20, 2007

She looketh well to the ways of her household

Pr 31:27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.

Let's start by me saying that since dealing with menopause I sometimes struggle with lack of energy. This week has been one of those weeks. Yesterday I had absolutely no energy and I did the bare essentials. My son stepped up yesterday and helped me with the things that needed to be done. Today I don't have much energy again. My first thought when I read this was why couldn't I have read this the other day when I had energy and scrubbed the floors. But knowing in my heart that God's timing is always perfect let's look at it closer.

She watches over her household. I am sure she covers all of them in prayer every day. This could also mean that she makes sure that everyone is doing their part. Just as my son stepped in and helped yesterday. It doesn't say she did everything herself. But the last part is what I am struggling with today. I didn't get out of bed till 8:30 this morning, and I usually get up around 7:30. I haven't been sleeping well at night for a few nights now. But these are really just excuses aren't they? I could sleep till noon and if I got up and did what needs to be done it really wouldn't be a problem. The problem is if I don't force myself I will do nothing today.

Now I realize that sometimes we need a rest. A day off if you will and there is nothing wrong with that. I take a day off or at least a few hours usually once a week. But that is after I have my home in order. It is my attitude right now that is wrong. There were things I could have done yesterday to prepare for today that don't require a lot of energy. Today is pay day and I need to grocery shop. I could have sat and worked on a menu plan and a grocery list. But because of my attitude I didn't. UGH I totally ate the bread of idleness. If I were ill it wouldn't bother me, but I am not. Yes I am dealing with menopause issues, but I have been dealing with them awhile and that also is an excuse. So this morning I sought the Lord to change my attitude. To give me energy and a desire to do those things He would have me do today.

What does your day look like?


Shannon said...

I'm struggling too with the energy to get things done, and the bad attitude. My initial response is generally negative, and I just Ugh- I want it to change so badly, I just dont know how to get there.. I'm praying for your struggles too, and thinking about you :-)

Miss ya on the group, but I know you have a lot on your plate lately..


cajunquilter said...

thanks shannon. I miss ya'll too.

hang in there, i am praying for you also.

Laurel Wreath said...

"It doesn't say she did everything herself." Amen!!!

I enjoyed reading this.

cajunquilter said...

thanks for your kind words laurel.

FlipFlop Mom said...

ahh Mama Bear.. I know.. I know... I was so excited.. here in NH day 2 of GORGEOUS weather for us.. you would say it was freezing we would say it's perfect.. LOL LOL and I get knocked down by a stupid cold/bodyache thing.. you know those type when yours itch you can't scratch them...
Today I'm obeying and being lazy.. I wanted and needed to do TONS of yardwork.. but you know what..??? My awesome hubby put his Boots back on today ( I think you heard him call them a bad word yesterday.. lol lol.. something kickers...)and did almost ALL the yard work.. woo hoo!!!

Morning Glory said...

Don't feel guilty because menopause gets you down. It's a reality and a physical challenge. I'm with you on these feelings of no energy, etc., and we just can't berate ourselves for experiencing this phase of life. It's not like we can stop it. It's frustrating, but we do need to be good to ourselves and take care of our needs. I hope you feel better soon.